Description:This was a hard one to do for me. I got so emotional as I was doing the journaling yesterday morning that I was crabby for the rest of the day! I do not like to think how horrible I was to my mother growing up.
I scrap lifted the design from somewhere-if anyone recognizes it, thank you! I only sketched the elements out and not sure if it was a magazine or a LO on this board!
Thanks for looking!
Nora
P.S. And I used some stuff from my stash! I am trying to use pp's that I have rather then buy new ones!
I am the oldest of four children that my mother had in a fiver year period. Due to circumstances that were not my Mom’s fault, she just didn’t have the time to give me all the attention that I needed. As a result, I sought out negative attention. I will forever feel guilty for the way I treated my mother growing up. I was a horribly ungrateful child from the get go-testing my mother every step of the way.
As I became a teenager, it didn’t get much better. I would tell her I hated her and even wished that she were dead. This statement I regret the most out of anything I ever did. My Mother died from cancer in 1992 when I was twenty-three. Did I wish this upon her from all my actions? I know that in reality I don’t have that power but I think about my behavior and wish I could take back every horrible moment in our mother-daughter relationship.
I know that my Mom forgave me in the end. I was the one that had the treasured moments of taking care of her in the last days. My brother and sisters were either working or at school and my Dad couldn’t really handle the reality. Those were some of the best and the worst moments of my life. I had the chance to apologize and lament over my behavior. I also thanked her for all that she had given me.
In spite of how I acted, I know that my Mother loved me immensely. She got me through some extremely rough days. If it weren’t for her, I would not be here writing this now. I only wish that she could have been around to see how much I have learned from her. And I even think she would be a bit proud of the woman I grew up to be.
NOra this is such a touching layout..your mom is looking down and sees how much you really love her and her memories are living on and through you!
Patti
Wonderful journaling and your mother was a beautiful woman--you look like her! Thank you for sharing--I hope that some healing has come from writing your thoughts down on paper.
Your journaling tugs at the heartstrings. You did an excellent job expressing yourself. I love the way you kept the design simple with a strong focus on the journaling. So glad you got to spend those days with your mom at the end. She'd definitely be proud of you.
Nora, this is an amazing LO and such strong heartfelt journaling (hang on while I get a tissue to wipe my eyes!) Your mother would be ever so proud of you today and the fact that you've seen the error in your ways - this is something so many people can never see. She has made you the person you are today and she will always be a part of you! ~cheers Paula
Beautiful page & I can honestly say that you & I treated our mothers similar & I had NO reason to treat her as I did....I appreciate you doing this page, it is an inspiration for me. I don't think we are the only one's.
Nora,
What beautiful and heartfelt journaling. Your Mom would be proud of the caring, giving woman you grew up to be. You can rest assured she is smiling down at you each and every day. I know you have brightened my days more than once and I know I am not alone!
Beautiful layout and sentiments.
You did an excellent job journaling a very tough subject. I'm sure your mother was very proud of you and if she were here today, would be extremely proud of this lo. TFS.
Trish
Your journaling has me crying! That was beautifully written and quite moving. Your mother was a beautiful woman. I think it was a gift for you to be with her at the end and I can't imagine a mother not loving you for that.
What a wonderfully, honest entry to your BOM
take care,
Dawn
