Description:Feel very privileged that I'm sharing this with you! lol. My dh hasn't even seen it. This is for my BOM...a page about losing my dad when I was little, and what mixed feelings I have about it. I have some "issues."
Journaling: My dad passed away when I had barely turned 10. At the time I had no idea what the rest of my childhood was going to be like without a dad and how much emotional pain it would bring me throughout my entire life. I watched my mom marry someone who was not my dad and start a new family. I felt left behind, and had no one to blame it on but my dad. I was always so jealous of my friends at church who had perfecet families and always talked about how wonderful their dads were. I watched them have great relationships with their dads, and it was so hard, because I knew I was never going to have that in my life. I have such mixed feelings about my dad, because my childhood memories of him are wonderful, yet as an adult I can fully understand the bad decisions he made in his life, and I know his death was brough on by those choices. I know he's sorry, but that doesn't take away the fact that I grew up without a dad. My husband will never know him, my children will never have a grandpa, and I will live the rest of my life wondering what life would be like if he was still alive. I have one very small box of memorabilia, and that's the only piece of him I will ever have.
I love the courage you have in scrapping and posting this. I lost my Dad recently and although I was fortunate enough to grow up with him, it's very hard knowing my youngest dd will never remember him. She was 8 months when he passed. I'm sorry for your loss.
There is so much feeling in this page - big hugs to you! Maybe writing down your feelings did help you a little bit. Keep your box of him as a treasure, your children will love to look at it one day! Even when they never got to know their grandfather! You did a wonderful page!
I know journaling must have helped you some. It's very raw and emotional. Big hugs to you, my friend. (great composition, btw...but I know that's not the focus of the layout...)
so much goes into lo's and journaling. Sometimes it can help heal more than any shrink. Your lo and journaling are full of emotion and love. I hope that it helped to heal your heart a little bit. Thank you for sharing.
WOW! This is really powerful. Thank you so much for sharing this with us. I know it must have been difficult to compose but it is beautiful and I hope it helped bring you some closure.
Very sad and yet very real layout. Thanks for sharing that with us. Just remember that some of us do have living Dads who don't care about their children and live very selfish lives (like mine). I never see my Dad. But we have other loved ones, and also, God to bring us happiness to fill that emotional hole!
