I think just maybe I am starting to come out of my christmas funk. I have not been in the mood for christmas. When I turn the music on I just cry. When I think of the beginning of december. I feel guilty, then i remember the longest few days of my life..... then the hard time.
I find this year has been hard with J starting school, starting hockey, etc. then leading up to christmas I've just been in a funk.
Tonight though J and I put up a few decorations. He was so excited. Plus Daddy is not home so he knows when daddy gets home he'll say what happened? he was just so giggly over that. i hope to do more tomorrow or saturday with him.